today going karaoke wif cindy, her didi and her mum... lol.. wonder wad song she will sing o.0... mayb sing old old song wakakaka!! ... XP den hor sound crappy one... o.0..... nonono... cant imagine liao ltr i eat de food all vomit out lol. jkjk =X so sianxx... haizz.. i hav been wondering..... yy at nite de cloud move slower than morning de cloud????... anyone know the ans?.. the ans im looking for is not like "science" question arh... ("science" question as in.. ur ans will b sth like -- at nite no wind.. or wadeva crap. i dun wan this type of ans.) well... my ans is.... at nite the cloud is dark dark de mah... so like it has alot of "darkness" in it la... darkness as in... troubles... problems..... these kinda things.... so it cant move forward until those problems are solved.. not even the wind can help them.... wind.... as in... those you treasure....important ppl to you.... not even they can help you...... all the coulds can do... is wait for the sun to rise and clear all their problems away... then... they can move on........ ^^ my reason is weird... wadeva lor.. im weird anyway... but ii think my ans is kinda true... right???... and... hmm.. one more question... y does rainbows have to appear after the rain? again, this is not a "science" question.... (dun gimme crappy ans like -- the rain breaks up the 7 colours of light and blah blah blah...) my ans is..... the rain is like all the problems you face... only after you solve those problems, then you can move on with life and you will see results.... and those good results.... are like the rainbow... lol ok another weird reason... but who cares... i feel that it got meaning can liao... it has meaning to me anyway.... k... so... i was wondering... who hates rainbows?.... well... i think.. only those who hav not yet seen a rainbow in their life would hate them.... mayb im one of them..... no one understands me... i dun even understand myself..... i just dun know... y im behaving like this? all those lies... all those words..... yy do ii even hurt myself?.... for all that i hav done.... what i get is nothing like a rainbow.... all i get is more rain..... sorrow....sadness...anger... and regret.... yy do i even try so hard to make myself happy?... y cant i just.. give up?... death is the only way to escape from this terrible fate.... fate..... wad is my fate?... wad is my destiny??? its painful living on without a goal..... its horrible........ no one can understand how i feel... no one.... not even myself......... its painful...... its a torture..... i dun wanna live on this way.... but there is nothing i can do..... i cant change who i am... i cant change my destiny...................... mayb i dun seem like this infront of people... but i want them to know.... its only an act... if you know me well enuff... you will know that deep down... im suffering.... i learnt this somewhere - hito wa kodokuni ga kattenai.... it means that people cannot win against their loneliness.... it describes me quite well.... all i feel inside.... is loneliness... emptiness..... i just dont see why i should live on..... all i want to know.... is that..... will i eventually find someone who understands me?..... the answer... is most probably... no.....
In nomine Dei nostri Satanas Luciferi excelsi!
SATAN of the South LUCIFER of the East BELIAL of the North LEVIATHAN of the West
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