Thursday, February 21, 2008 mah fucken rant :

read this post at your own risk.

first off, the common tests went well. but im still suffering from a bad case of writers block, so no update. secondly, school is boring and i almost slept in class today. thirdly, may flower and 1A sucks ass.

blah. so yes, rant. right. these are questions i have yet have any answer to. i want answers. please help.

1) love is more than care and concern for the other party. and even more than lust and desires. so what is love?

2) whats wrong with being bisexual?

3) why is my class so childish?

4) why do i second guess everything and doubt everyone?

5) why do i hurt others just to get answers to my questions?

6) the world needs to be more open minded, but how?

7) i hate babies, why?

8) i dont have emotions, why?

....that's all... for now. my heart hurts again... fuck. i dont even know why.... feels like i have a heart....... but its just a fucking...thing... not that i didnt know it was there but.... i need to learn to fucking feel for people.... god damn it....

and now... rant. yes....

here's my fucking sonnet. i know it sucks. im not into poetry anyway.

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love is found in hatred; hatred is found in love.
love is nothing but a word,
no true meanings behind it all,
just hurting me, making me fall.
the heart and spirit,
both two in one,
but one is not one; never calm.
two hearts joined together only increases the pain;
two souls joined together will never be forever.
seperated as they are, trying to find something new.
casting away their hatred for each other, they came to love again;
but only to break up several moments later, filled with hatred and agonization, so.
lament me to thy hearts' song, let me know what it's like to love and hate;
the feelings once lost, will never be found again.

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i know it sucks. didnt know where it came from anyway. it just popped into my head...
whatever.
playing my recorder now.... and dunno where the tune comes from but sounds nice... really. everything just seems to pop into my head..... geez.
- regie satans! ave satans! hail satan! - 7:16 PM

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