Saturday, February 07, 2009 eternal spring... :

things have changed...too fuckin much. i just wanna go back in time when i was too stupid to know a thing about life. those days when i was ever happy... smiling... laughing everday. but now the past is nothing more than a fond memory. its all my fault that things changed isn't it? .... its all my fault. though, i regret nothing. nothing at all.
regret, guilt, happiness, joy.... threw it all away. everything that's left are memories... be they good or bad. envy. hate. jealousy. sadness. should have thrown them away too, though they still stayed... hurts........... it fuckin hurts------------
i didnt want it to be this way. no.... but it's too late to regret anything isn't it? .... why.... why the fuck can't i just get what i want.
a simple life. happiness. joy. in the world of eternal spring. where nothing goes wrong.
but no... its just a dream, just another fantasy. it doesnt happen, and never will. times have changed. the new era has come. and all i can do is sit at the sidelines and look. look at the world...and how its gonna crumble. shatter. dissappear.
the fight for power is reaching it's peak. and a winner shall soon emerge. and when it does, the human society shall fall.
pathetic.... pathetic human beings...

give me my life back---------------

i dont want to suffer anymore... afriad ? scared ? maybe... maybe not. we fear what we do not know. stupid, yes... but human. i'll just continue to dream. dream about the sakura trees surrounding a small house. a pathway leading towards the house... and someone... anyone... standing on the pathway, welcoming me back home. ... dream on.

laughing and crying at the same time is a good cure for the emotional pain-------

deformed.... oh the deformity. pathetic... pathetic human beings.

i laugh at your pain------

i cry for mine------
- regie satans! ave satans! hail satan! - 12:39 PM

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