Monday, March 09, 2009 mixed up time... :

Its weird. After doing my research, I have concluded that I, indeed, have multiple personalities. Now I understand what the voices were. I finally understand a part of me. Some people may not believe me, thinking that I'm too stressed or shit like that. But I'm very sure, that I indeed do have multiple personalities. Even some of my friends agree with me. But I'm sure they don't really understand. No one does. How can someone understand me when I don't even understand myself? That's utter bullshit.

So after talking to myself -or one of my personalities- I found out his name was Chris. He said he was the one who was keeping me company in school or whenever I was bored. Though he was not the only one. I asked him if he knew the others, but he didn't. I don't know if I'm decieving myself or not, but from what I experience, I can conclude I certainly am not.

Chris likes instrumental music which are soothing and sad at the same time. He may be color blind, cuz everything he shows me is in black and white. He likes drawing stuff and shading them. I should really ask him to draw something for me sometime. His sketches are nice, even though its only in black and white.

He mopes alot, and is sad most of the time. I thought he may be the one which was always telling me things that people would normally classify as 'insane' but he said he wasn't the one.

I trust him.

Chris is a nice guy.

I certainly hope I'm not insane.

Chris says hi. 'Kei, stop blogging... It'd make people think you're crazy,' or so he says.

...

Though people with multiple personalities ain't considered insane. They are more of considered mentally ill. Or some shit like that.

I don't really care.

... I wanna know more of the 'people' who are sharing the same body as me. I wanna know myself better.

Chris likes cookies.

And I do too.

shemhamforash. hail satan.
- regie satans! ave satans! hail satan! - 10:49 PM

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